reasoning

I turn off chat on facebook most of the times… 99% because I don’t want to feel that I am ignored. its a wrong way of thinking, but i can’t help it.
turning the chat off just gives me a “false” reasoning why i am ignored.. simply because i am not online to them, but the truth is more complicated, more harsh.

same thing when i ignore my mobile.. setting it on vibrate and placing it away so i can pretend that it might be ringing, but i can’t hear it.

i am not haunted by it.. its just something that i think about from time to time.